"Who am I? Who am I really?" Everyday I ask myself the same thing, and every day I have a different answer. Honestly, one day i'm the toughest, most brave person I know and the next, i'm the most quiet and most reserved 20 year old girl I know of, it has always been a battle with myself. Even I, myself has also been very curious of who I really am when no one is watching, when no one can see me, when I have no one around to judge my decisions and when the only person who had anything to say about me, was myself.
If I were to ask myself 10 years ago who I really was, well, I was Ma'k Almario a fairy princess with dreams bigger than I was, I was Snow white who thought of everything and everyone as good people, who trusted everyone that even an apple from a stranger was good enough to eat, I was Wonder woman, who fought all the bad guys and would always save the day. I was Ma'k Almario, a fairy princess who had nothing but high hopes for herself.
Give it another 8 years from that day, and I was an 18 year old adult, whose problems were bigger than her dreams, I was Snow White who needed someone else to make her feel alive, who needed a man to balance her out as she was awaken by the reality of life, I was wonder woman who fought with people, in fact who fought with anyone who got in between her and her life goals. I was Ma'k Almario, an adult who had nothing but clouds of negativity and hate.
I would often ask myself where was the Ma'k Almario I knew of 10 years ago? Where was that jolly old 10 year old girl who believed in nothing but faith in humanity? It was only 8 years after that I realized she was gone. a year ago, I turned 19, and I finally realized who I am.
And if I were to ask myself again, "Who am I?" I'm not a 10 year old fairy princess nor am I an 18 year old adult, I am a 20 year old who does not let anyone define her. I am not Snow white, nor am I Wonder woman, I am my own hero, I fight my own battles and I face everyday with a smile and I let no one bring me down. Life has been tough but if it is life that made me who I am today and it is life that will make me who I am 10 years later.
Today, I am Ma'k Almario, a 20 year old woman with goals bigger than her dreams, I am Ma'k Almario, a hero of her own, I am Ma'k Almario a 20 year old woman who has everything from high hopes to being in cloud 9. Take every day as it is, let life define who you really are.
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